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Teil 15
TROUBLE AHEAD

„On the sale of footage to the tabloids that revealed Kate's drug dabbling it Kate is devastated. There were only a few people in the room at the time - all supposed to be our friends. I will be able to work out who is responsible. There will be blood on the carpet when we work out who betrayed us. I will seek down and kill the person“
PETE (2005)

„'She's [Kate Moss] doing really well. I shouldn't say really. She wants me to go to this [rehab] place in Arizona straight after her and do it.”
PETE (2005)

„Each man kills the things he loves. I recognise that in myself - in relationships or even with guitars, or beautiful things that I've had, then wilfully destroyed."
PETE (2004)

„I never know where I stand with her. It's either a black eye or a love bite. It's like being in Afghanistan with her. I wish I could find some middle ground. I spoke to Kate about 30 minutes ago. She shouted and screamed at me. She threw her mobile at the wall. She's furious.“
PETE (2005)

“Everyone believes [Kate] went in there to beat her own cocaine addiction. That's wrong. She did it to save her career. Having said that, she came out saying it really works. But she is terrified of her will power failing. She's petrified of being caught again. She knows if she ever went back to drugs she would have to be more discreet.“
PETE (2005)

“Kate can't come back to England because of her situation with the police. She's too scared to come back. We had a secret rendezvous in Paris. She slipped away from her people. They don't want me near her."
PETE (2005)

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Teil 16
DRUGS

„Yes I'm a heroin addict, yes I'm addicted to crack cocaine, and I don't know what to do. I'm all cut up, unsure. I don't know what I'm doing. I need a good kicking and I need some help.“
PETE (2003)

„It isn't drugs that I need to get rid of; it's the demons that fill my head. Once I have come to terms with my demons, maybe I'll be able to get clean.“
PETE (2004)

„There are three things that I know a bit about in my life and that's QPR, my guitar and drugs. I know Queens Park Rangers are the best football team in the world, my guitar is the most beautiful thing I own and that I don't take enough drugs to kill me.”
PETE (2004)

“If I want drugs, I don't have to do a gig to get them. I do a gig when I feel shit, because I need to be playing. There's no drug in the world that can compare with playing music.”
PETE (2004)

„I still hadn't smoked coke, that was to come later. But I did have a rock, having scored on the street in King's Cross... I ended up with this rock of crack but I didn't know what to do with it. I just had it in my little tin.”
PETE (2005)

„You've got to understand the amount I was taking... when you come off it, it's poison, effectively. It's difficult. And anyone who knows anything about it wouldn't believe me if I said, ‚Oh, I've knocked it on the head.' But I don't want to do it any more. This is it.”
PETE (2005)

“History has shown that there's only one conclusion, and that's the blackout. The great void. Which is worse, maybe, I suppose. I'm not a nihilist and I don't want to die, so that would be the
worst thing.“
PETE (2004)

“I value my creative talent and to destroy that is a terrible thing. I know where the self-destruct button is - I just have to resist the temptation to push it.“
PETE (2004)

„I'm not scared about death. I don't care if everyone says I'm going to die if I carry on taking drugs.”
PETE (2004)

„It is impossible for things to go on as they have done. I will end up six feet under, particularly with the crack. It just spirals into the darkest, saddest melody.“
PETE (2004)

”There is something irresistible about it, something like waiting for the perfect wave that never comes. But it is awful if it destroys anything that is good.”
PETE (2004)

“It's of no interest talking about drugs. You do them or you don't do them. I wouldn't encourage anyone either way. Choose your own path. But tread carefully on this drifting ice. Because any one of us could go under at any point. I ain't going down like that.“
PETE (2003)

„When I first took heroin I didn't think of it as smack. I had this romantic image of it as like opium. Poets have always taken Opium."
PETE (2005)

“Drugs have never been the driving wheel. They're just part of creating music. I just want to play, so I take heroin to enhance my creativity. A lot of my songs are heroinrelated, but they're never a celebration of it.“
PETE (2004)

„[Crack addiction is] like you're in love with someone. You never really stop loving that person. It's like a family member who's a bit troublesome, but you love them anyway because you know they're all right, even if the rest of the world can see the truth - ie they're not all right. They're in your blood.”
PETE (2004)

“The first time I had heroin, I was 21, walking round the streets of Whitechapel on a Sunday, smoking brown my dealer gave me and thinking I was cool. I've no idea how much I took that first time or how much it cost. He gave it to me free. As it got into my bloodstream, I noticed it exaggerated parts of me that were already there: solitude and loneliness. Then I started getting all these creative thoughts.“
PETE (2002)

„What's the worst situation I've woken up in after a heavy night? Oh God! Under a taxi with no clothes on... I ended up knocking a cyclist out and nicking his bike.“
PETE (2005)

„I think some people's lives would be ruined with drugs and some would be dramatically improved with drugs. Anything that's going to move them from the fucking middling state they're in, whether it's a cup of coffee or a snowball up your jacksy."
PETE (2005)

“I don't know if taking drugs would make you feel glamorous, maybe the opposite. It might make you feel dingy or sordid. Or maybe for a split second you might feel elevated or glamorous, but I would never say drugs are glamorous or made me feel glamorous“
PETE (2005)

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Teil 17
REHAB

“People in the Libertines' camp think I've wasted all this money and time on rehabilitation but it's not true. The time in the monastery, the time in the Priory, were times of being clean, so it's not a waste, is It?”
PETE (2005)

"You learn about your strengths and you learn about your weaknesses. Any effort you make... you can't knock someone just because they don't last the distance.”
PETE (2005)

The Priory

“I'm fine... they've whacked me on loads of medication. 16 different colours pills like hundreds of thousands of Bassett's jelly babies.”
PETE (2004)

“If I can't even go 24 hours without having a hit... then I'm never in reality going into rehab voluntarily.”
PETE (2005)

“I've got to start getting clean straight away. But I can't do it in the Priory or places like that. I have to do it in the environment I live in because I am always going to be surrounded by drugs when I'm making music. I've just got to find the inner strength to control it.”
PETE

“It's the only time I'll have fucking voluntarily gone into rehab.”
PETE (2005)

„[I went to the Priory] to show them I was making an effort, because I know they don't like those things. Even though I feel I'm in control“
PETE (2004)

"Carl came down and brought me some QPR trunks and said, 'Come on, let's go swimming.' But the swimming pool was closed so he went home."
PETE (2005)

„I was told I was allowed no visitors, and all of a sudden Carl comes in. I didn’t want to see him [Carl], I wanted to fucking get clean, and do it and make him proud and that’s the reason I was in there, for him, and then he came in and I just felt really dirty. He just came in and said how he’d been clean for so long, like three or four days or whatever, and kept going on about how much he was enjoying life and I just felt shit – I don’t even want to be in there.”
PETE (2005)

Thailand

“I'd only come out of the Priory a couple of days earlier so I'd been through all the shakes, vomiting and nights with cold turkey. Foolishly I didn't do any research about Thailand before I went, and it was hardcore.“
PETE (2004)

„To get the most out of that place isn't to approach it like, ‘I'm going to recover from a drug.' It's to enter on a spiritual journey within yourself to find that precious thing you might call a soul. All I could think of, though, was songs.“
PETE (2004)

„I had a breakdown at one point. I said Let me go.' They said, `’We don't think that's a good idea; the head monk is dying, he's very ill, it's a very bad time at the moment you can't go without his permission'."
PETE (2005)

„On the third day, I left and went to Bangkok. I booked into a hotel where they offered room service of heroin with my bacon and eggs. I told them I didn't have any money but they said I could have it on a tab. I notched up a £28o bill in three days. If I'd done the same amount of brown in England it would have cost me thousands“
PETE (2004)

“They [the monks] thought l was some millionaire rock star who was going to invest in the monastery.”
PETE (2005)

„They were expecting me to be a gibbering wreck. I was sleeping, and eating, I was all right - it was psychological. I couldn't stay in that place. I thought I was going to be isolated but I wasn't. I had monks coming up to me with photocopies of The Sun.“
PETE (2005)

“[I have a] very deranged and murky recollection of the last few days. A gaggle of nurses around my crinkly bed, they all jump as I wake up and yelp something about jelly. Then I notice a needle sticking out of my arm and spots of blood. What the fuck is going on? Vomit and shrieks, some girl warbling down the corridor in a towel. At least my laptop is here still. The only one who ever
stood by me.“
PETE (2004)

„Thamkrabok was a wake-up call. I was getting stronger and learning how to deal with something that had overtaken me at the time. I discovered things about myself that I didn't like. It was part of the process of spewing up poison. One of the monks was convinced that the demons coming out of me were the scariest he'd seen. It frightened the fuck out of me. But it let me know that that dark energy is there - and when I've developed as a human being I'll try and confront that dark side.”
PETE (2004)

„I was cut off from my immediate surroundings in this room with 12 or 13 mattresses, bunks and lots of people who looked like they hadn't slept for a long time.”
PETE (2005)

„[Arriving in Thailand] reminded me of certain times in my life when I've arrived in a new place completely alien, like moving to England when I was very, very young."
PETE (2005)

Escaping from the monastery in Thailand
„With the help of this bloke from Manchester I managed to get out.”
PETE (2005)

Arizona

“With the amount of coke Kate was taking, it was amazing she got through rehab. I don't know how she stuck it for five weeks se I was bored senseless. I thought I'd be able to do five weeks. But if I'm honest my head would have exploded. I only stuck at it because she paid.”
PETE (2005)

“I had to share a room with two people. There were lots of strange people in there. It was like a prison.”
PETE (2005)

“They made me carry a teddy bear to show I had lost my inner child. A light came down from the sky. It was like a vision telling me to pull my finger out - pull my finger out of my crack pipe. I really wanted to do well in rehab to be strong for my family and Kate. But I missed London and my friends.”
PETE (2005)

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